Crazy topsy turvy world...

So what to do when you sister is about to make a mistake, but at the same time your a little relieved that she will be out of sight, out of mind. That is my dilemma. I love my sister and when she had a problem I did all I could to help her, but in the end it was my sending her away that got her to get clean.

Unfortunatly, while away getting sober she also got knocked up. To say I was a little upset on the inside doesn't quite cover it. Then she started running around up there in the OK state talking about how she wanted to come home, so my mom and I both made it happen which left us both broke as hell, but what else could we do? So home she flew.

A month later off she is flying back to what she was running away from. Hmm...I will miss her and I'm sorry that I won't get the chance to see my niece's birth, but she is an adult and I had to learn a long time ago with a lot (and I mean years) of help from counselors that I have to let her grow up and that I can't force her to walk the path that I think is right.

Do I think she is going back because it is best for the baby...NO. Going back cause she really loves her baby daddy...NO. Going back because she can't handle life without a man and DRAMA!...ding ding ding....RIGHT ANSWER! That above all else makes me upset. She just can't survive with out the attention of men. I feel sad that she needs him to make her day worth it, but again with the whole can't make her walk the path that I think is right.

Only time will tell how this will work out, but I love her and my niece regardless of all the shit that is going around.

Live, Love, Laugh...then do it all over again.

illusyon