Pray

Pray

Twice cheated on

Once beaten on

You say you give as good as you get

But who you trying to fool

He lies to you

You lie to us

So you can keep lying to yourself

Hoping he’ll change for you

Be a man for you

He does as he pleases

While you work to please him

You pay for him

You lay for him

You bore a baby with him

You gave up your life to love him and raise a baby with him

He can’t even give up 8 hours a day of his life to get a job to live

You need to stop playing with him

Stop laying with him

Start praying for him

To grow the fuck up and be the man you believe him to be

Or get the fuck out of your life

So you can be the woman you were born to be

Written on September 13, 2008 by H. Brown

Let Me

LET ME

You want me to be NICE

You want me to be HAPPY

You want me to LIVE

But only the life you think I should live

Lose weight you tell me

Don’t cut yourself

Don’t be a bitch

Live your own life and let us live ours you tell me

I would gladly let you live yours

If you get the fuck out of mine

My body is my body

My mind is my mind

You suck up everything I am

Push on me what you think I should be

Leave me

Leave me to live

Let me feel my feelings

Let me love only me

Hate me for me

But stop trying to change me

Fuck my weight

Fuck my physical scars

Think about the ones you can’t see

Live my life

Live with my memories

Live with my guilt

Before you try to tell me again how I should live my life again

Leave my life

So I can live it

Written September 29, 2008

Adventures while Traveling 06

June 18, 2011

Where is Sally Beauty Store? Cause DAMN...it was harder to find than Waldo.

After our time at the splash park I wanted to go to Sally Beauty Store. They recently opened one in Pearl City, Hawaii. So I wanted to check on what they were like in the states. Wow...who would have thought it would be so hard to find. I had went on the Internet and looked for the address, but unfortunately it was not correct. After 20 minutes of driving in circles and back tracking, I finally look up the number and ask. Clearly from the amount of merchandise that I bought we found the store.

Stuff for dyeing my hair

Stuff for doing mani/pedi work

It is just like the one that we have in Pearl City, Hawaii, but I wanted to get some stuff. Some stuff turns into a lot of stuff and a $94.00 bill. What ever with that...I needed this stuff and used most if not all of it. Plus $5.oo of that was for the members card. Hope the next time i go there I don't spend as much, but I will definitely go back.

Adventures while Traveling 05

June 18, 2011

Filled with water fun and a squirrel?

Devin - Age 6

On this day we headed on over to what my sister called a splash park. In Honolulu, Hawaii they have a small version of this at Moanalua Terrace. This on was very large and reminded me of the kiddie area that most water parks have. The splash park is located on Fort Sill and you have to be military to enter the area.

Shots from Left to Right of Splash Park

It was hot as all get out and I have not seen so many flying bugs, i.e. wasps and yellow jackets. Scary for me cause I have not yet been stung by anything.

Ohhh...the weirdest thing that can image happened I am sitting there have normal conversation with my sister while Devin is playing and all of a sudden out of the trees comes a female deer just frolicking along the tree line across the street. I guess those DEER XING signs are legit. Sadly it was moving to fast for me to take a picture of especially because I wasn't expecting something like that. But I did get a pic of a squirrel which I have never seen one before. So here they are.

Squirrel...I think?

Adventures while Traveling 04

The Longs Distance Pieces of My Heart

From left to right: Devin - Age 6, Haley - Age 25, Heather - Age 23, Kaden - 2 mths. (sitting in aunty Heather's lap), Fayth - Age 4 mths. (sitting in her stroller)

Am I slightly disappointed that I haven't been having a super crazy whirlwind of an adventure...sorta. Whose fault is it that I am not...mine. Above and way beyond those fact is that I really came all this way to spend time with my family. I spend a lot of time with my family, so I am happy that I have to he opportunity to. Now I miss everyone back home, but most of all I find my heart a little empty with of Mr. Dozie just around the corner to annoy the hell out of me when I least want him too.

Mr. Dozie when is was age 3 now he is age 4

Yupperoonieee (Mr. Dozie's new word as of yesterday when I spoke to him), please see above for a pic of the naughty but hella cute Mr. Dozie. God, I miss him, my sister, my mom, Chalsie, Ash, Chris, Uncles & Aunties, nana, my co-workers & boss or in short my friends...gotta clarify which friends cause I can't say I miss them all ( kinda Ackwarddddddd another of Mr. Dozie's words of wisdom).

Rainbow over Honolulu CC

Ms. Jennifer Kakio (http://jenkakio.com) & Mr. Ryan Adverderada (http://fluffy2fit.com)

I am glad for the chance to visit the peices of my heart that live a long way away, but damn I miss the rest of you.

Gentleman Vampyre :)

Review for It Happened One Bite by Lydia Dare

purchased on 6/20/2011 on illusyon's purple book kave (my nook)

This historical, paranormal romance is a great addition to the Lydia Dare writing teams series.

James Maitland, Baron Kettering, wakes in a dark cellar and the last thing he remembers is five women…witches surrounding him. He isn’t sure how long he has been out, what he has done to deserve such treatment, and why he has suddenly awoken.

Blaire Lindsay, is one of five sister witches who are a part of the Coig. She isn’t sure why her brother has inherited this old castle or why suddenly her heirloom ring is glowing and warm to the touch until she release the man from the cellar of the castle.

Blair must discover what and who James is while he is trying to locate his ring that was stolen and trying not to fall for the lovely Miss Lindsay at every turn. Attraction isn’t one sided though and fangs begin to fly when these two come together to settle an old debt against James.

I loved the characters. Their banter kept me reading & engaged in the storyline. Readers get glimpses of past characters and future plots.

There are some small surprises, but one thing through this series is that so far the paranormal guy always gets his girl in the end. Which is something that I truly love.

If you can read it electronically you can save some money on this series.

Best wishes on your next literary adventure,

illusyon

Adventures while Traveling 03

So I have been here in Lawton, Oklahoma for all most a month and I haven't really done much of anything but hang with my family, read, & drive around Lawton...oh and eat cause I have been overly hungry as of late. I can't say that I am missing out on much. Cause in all reality if I was at home I would probably be doing the same things just in my apartment and neighborhood.

Hopefully once my sisters husband comes back to Lawton we will go to six flags. Although I am not too sure about riding anything. Hmm....Can I even fit on the rides? I don't know, but either way I want to go so that Devin can go since it is his summer too.

Any ways I miss home, works, and all the people that I am so used to seeing on a daily basis. Hope everyones summer is going good. Oh and I hope everyones summer school is going great too.