Dumb Bitches of the World,

Or at least those from my neck of the neighborhood.

The blog below was written on June 4, 2008 and the Dumb Bitches still ain't to get their shit straight yet...only time and a lot of headaches, heartaches, tears, and soul searching will tell.

So I was up all night. That is totally not surprising though since I stay up all night and sleep all day. The subject line is that of a bunch of comments that I created over night for what I have coined as "dumb bitches". Most of them are friends of mine.

I just happen to all the time feel like slapping them when they come to me with shit that totally could have been avoided if only they had a brain.

Perhaps I should send them on their way to meet the great wizard of OZ to get a brain, some courage, some heart, and a way home, but then again if you send a dumb bitch one of a few things could happen:

1. They run in to a smooth talking munchkin and never follow the yellow brick road.

2. They find the oz, sleep with him, and end up having his kids

3. They party so hard the night before that they don't even remember their name in the morning let alone that they need to get the items they went there for in the first place.

Yes that is the life and legacy of a dumb bitch. So far I have 26 of them and I am looking to create more of them along the way. Who knows maybe one day I will write a book on things that men say to women and that women fool themselves into believing. For now I will just have fun with it.

I also wrote a poem but I won't say too much about that.

illusyon

Hmmm...I wonder...

Ever get the feeling the your life is one big fucking joke and everyone knows the punch line but you? Ever get the urge to scream at the top of your lungs that the fucking universe sucks? Ever want just a few things to go your way rather then their way? Ever wonder why you keep trying? I hope you ain't looking for an answer from me I'm still trying to figure out the punch line to my own life. Keep looking for the answers to the questions I 'm sure that with all of us looking one of us will find it. Hey, if you find the answers don't forget to share.

illusyon

What goes around comes around

Karma is bitch and half. Don't tell her I said that. But really I was just thinking about myself, friends, and people in general. I am kinda worried for people. I mean what is up with the lack of responsibility in the world. Do we honestly wake up and go through our days with our heads in the fucking clouds? Thinking we can do what ever we want to eachother and have no back lash. I don't give a fuck who you are, where you come from, what you do for a living, who you worship, or anything else that makes you who you are. You fuck with people, Karma is going to come around and fuck with you. Might not be today, tomorrow, or even a year from now. She waits until you least expect and when it can do the most to impact your life. But she is going to come around and when she does you're gonna get fucked hard.



What doesn't the human brain get. You do shady shit to get ahead, when you fall on your ass and lose everything. You just got fucked. I know that people sometimes think Karma is a cosmic joke, but I am a strong believer in it. 



What really throws me for a loop is when people do shit and then shit is done to them and they bitch, moan, and complain. You cheat then get cheated on. Karma. You steal then get stolen from. Karma. You play games and then get played. Karma. What is so difficult about this theory that we as humans still continue to do stupid shit to one another.

illusyon

Accepting your Past

Growing up seemed like so much fun when I was young. How the world has changed since the time when running around looking - as my grandmother used to call me and my sisters - like ragga muffins. Mistakes as a child were of little concern then. Unfortunately that is no longer the case. People who make mistakes often refuse to admit bad things that they did in their past or things that were done to them. It is the sad truth.

Can I say that I wouldn't change some of the things that I did or undo some of the wrongs that were done to me? For sure if a time machine showed up right now it would be a hard choice. Though I can honestly say I would not undo any of it. Everything good or bad that happened made me who I am at this very second and the things that happen in the next hour will mold me into who I am then.

On a side note...if I went back who knows what would be different. People I love could end up dead or my family may not be who they are. Granted if you know me you know that my family is no where near perfect. and that I bitch about how much they irritate the heck out of me on a daily basis, but something has to be said for how much they are a truly vital part of my life. For the good and the bad they are who they are and some days I may wish to change them but then they would be the people I love the most.

Back on track...For everything that you did to become who you are embrace it. The good, bad, scary, ugly and down right nasty. Take it in acknowledge it as a part of who you were and understand that with out that you wouldn't be who you are today. It is when you try to hide the bad things that people like to side swipe you with them. If you acknowledge the instance and are aware of it when it is brought up even if it is uncomfortable and maybe a little embarrassing all you need to do is...look at that person who has inadvertently or on purpose brought up a sore subject and say, "Yeah I totally did that - shrug your shoulders even if the subject stings a little - but I don't do it anymore and I am a stronger person for having made the mistake." Bet that will get them to shut their mouths in a hurry - realizing that you are aware of it and don't really give a fuck can make all the difference in the world to someone out to hurt or embarrass you. If all else fails shrug your shoulders and keep silent.

I honestly don't believe that staying silent works but if you are to caught up in your own head - with thought like I can't believe this SOB brought this up - and can't say much else; it is better to keep quiet than to get pissy and make a scene. That is what they want if they set out to embarrass you.

If you have mistakes in your past like...sleeping with tons of people, or a particular person that you wish you could undo, saying something you wish you could take back, or any of the other of the thousands on thousands of other things that people wish they could undo. Take it in - give it a nice big hug - and don't do it again. Where it like a badge of honor. Don't stuff it in the closet to be discovered by someone out to hurt or embarrass you.

No one deserves to be side swiped with their past mistakes but it happens. Everyone even the SOB that will side swipe you with your mistakes has them. To Err is human to forgive divine. That saying applies to ourselves as well. Love your self for all the good, bad and ugly that you have. You are spectacular because of and in spite of all those moments.

Here is to giving every mistake I made a nice be hello and a hug. I am putting them on my shelf and dusting them every once in a while. Hope you do the same.

If you love who you are understand that you are who you are because of your past. If you hate who you are then make a conscious effort to change and move forward to a place where you can love who you are and embrace your past. If none of these is you read another blog.

Remember the only people without a past are people with amnesia. I'll keep my past thank you very much.

The universe is in my thoughts there by so are you...

illusyon

The 3 P's - From Mr. Harvey

Act like a Lady, Think like a Man is a top selling book my Steve Harvey. I can honestly say that I never thought that me an Steve thought much alike. He is a crazy funny comic and I am "me". I watched him on Tyra talking about his new book and was amazed at the things that were coming out of his mouth. Cause damn ain't I said those exact same things to friends of mine. It would take a comic to reiterate to me that I am not the only one that thinks some of the things that women do are not only crazy as all hell but a little retarded.

He talked about alot of things that women should know about the way that men think. One of the things he talked about were the three P's.

1. Profess - If it has been three months and your guy is still instroducing you as a friends instead of one of the following - My Girlfriend, My Baby Mama, My Fiancee, My Girl, My Women - then he is not in a relationship you and he are just playing around. Cause Steve claims that in the first months if your guy ain't given you a title that you ain't gonna get one.

2. Protect - Your man should be standing up for you as someone he cares about. I ain't saying play damsel in distress but damn he could at least attempt to protect.

3. Provide - Now Steve said he need to be at least attempting to provide for you how ever he can with whatever he is making.

If you aren 't getting a combination of the the 3 P's then the guy you think loves you is just going with the motions and not really feeling you.

So please lord if you won't listen to your own brain or a friend listen to Steve Harvey. He's got a penis. That kinda makes him qualified to tell us what men think. All though I don't have a penis I still get the frame of mind pretty close.

So here is to finding love at the right time, right place, and with the right person.

The universe is in my thoughts there by so are you...

illusyon

The importance of knowing your WORTH

How many times have you doubted who you were, what you were worth, and what you deserved from those around you? How many times have you let someone treat you badly to keep them? Too often women loss sight of who they are, and all that they contribute to this world.

History shows how often women were portrayed as weak minded individuals. Shit even the bible plays up men while a good majority of the women are potrayed as betrayers, liars, sluts and the down fall of a "good god fearing man". If you are flabberghasted that I would mention the bible you only need to get to the point where Eve ate the forbidden fruit of knowledge it went kinda down hil from there.

Women often forget or overlook how truly spectacular they are as beings of the universe. Shit we may not be able to create life on our own but we house and nurture it within our own bodies.

Don't think that I am bashing on men cause I ain't there are just as many women out there that will turn around and create some shit out of thin air.

We are not the property of anyone but ourselves. We own everything about ourselves. I don't give a fuck if people think marriage or relationships mean being one. You can be a unit but you are still two seperate entities. Don't get it twisted. Fuck around and end up locked in a basement and chained to a wall if you mess with the wrong person.

Being human makes us all a little flawed. I haven't met a perfect person yet and I doubt that I will. For that reason alone no one should ever doubt who they are and what they deserve. Or try to make other doubt who they are. You deserve all that you can ask for. You deserve respect if you give it. Love returned from those you love.

Can't tell you how many young woman I've seen and known who lost sight of their worth to this world. I am not even going to try to act like I don't know what it is like to think I don't deserve happiness. I've had those moments. Most of us have. It is just sad as fuck when your in a bad situation and you get out only to go back because (1) you are comfortable with the situation and not with what might come after (2) you sit around making excuses for the person who treats you like shit (3) you are hoping for better times (4) that person really doesn't mean it (5) shit the list can go on and on and I don't want to list it so fill in the _____________.

When you look within yourself find out what you truly desire and need to be happy. No bullshitting and don't put limits on it. Be realistic but be honest with yourself. If you aren't getting it then it is time to start taking steps to get there.

Walk with your head held high, back straight and pride in your heart cause you are one fantastic person.

As always the universe is constantly in my thought there by so are you.

illusyon

Knowledge is Power...

I remember when the hardest question was what to wear to school, where to go after school, and what type of milk, white or chocolate in the lunch line. Times are sure different. Young girls making choices they shouldn’t. Doing things they can’t talk about.

In my opinion if you can’t talk about it then you shouldn’t be doing it. If you can’t talk about sex, condoms, birth control, and the nitty gritty then you probably should be participating in it. Don’t be fooled. People think you have to learn from your own experiences are those learning the truly hard way.

I haven’t personally been beaten, but I know that I don’t want to experience it. I haven’t been cheated on, but I learned vicariously from watching my friends be upset, cry, and then probably go back. I choose to learn from my past, her past, there past, shit I learn from anyone’s past that I know.

Young girls thinking there grown, being taken advantage of and still thinking they run that shit. It’s like looking at a car accident waiting to happen. Your scream for them to stop and they just keep going heading straight for disaster.

Playing games they don’t even know the rules too. I’d laugh, but it truly isn’t a laughing matter. I don’t want them hurt I want the m educated so that they can see the disaster coming before they get to it and save themselves. I want them to have the knowledge to protect themselves from the people who would take advantage of them because of their lack of knowledge.

Don’t leave our young men and women without the knowledge that can prevent them from becoming someone’s victim. If they won’t talk then have them listen. Too many parents live in a fairy tale land of make believe where their child will do the right thing.

Shit that is the hope but I prepare for the worst and the best. Sometimes when I talk it is like talking to a brick wall, but I’ll be damned if I give up. I talk until I’m blue in the face and then still talk.

Don’t be nervous about informing our youth about the facts of life if we don’t someone will and it might not be the information of fact, but of bullshit that turns your son or daughter into the victim of lies, myths, and flawed views that can place them in danger of consequences that they can’t and shouldn’t have to be handling at such a young age.

If I wore a hat I’d take it off to those that arm their children with knowledge. That talk even when they don’t think they are listening. Keep talking. This way you don’t one day regret not giving them the knowledge.

Ohh and don’t think I’m only talking about the nitty gritty talk. I’m saying talk in general. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER. Don’t play like the electric company this power is the free kind if you want it to be.

The universe is in my thoughts there by so are you...

illusyon